Two weeks off from school! So for the Christmas break I will be spending two weeks hanging out with my family. It will be the last time for a while that we are all in one place, and by one place I mean one country. Being around people every moment of the day is definitely a big change for me. If you have ever lived by yourself you might understand what I am going through. There is a lot of adjusting to do. I kind of had a break down the other day. It is really funny how you think you are so strong and then something little makes you believe otherwise. Let me fill in the rest of the picture for you. I have been searching for a church home ever since I moved to Levelland. I have found some great churches but none of them feel like home or have anyone close to my age. It has been a struggle for me, I am very much a people person and to think that I have no friends to just go and hang out with has been super hard. Then I come home and see how everyone in my family have these places that they belong and people to share their lives with, it is hard. It is hard to think that I have not found that special place for me and that special someone to completely share my life with. But then I stop and think, Jesus never really belonged either. He did have the disciples to share his life with but he didn’t have a place in this world. We as Christians are called to stand apart and not belong but that does not make it any easier. I can only imagine how alone Christ must of felt at times, I mean here is a man who came into this world to die for it and no one believed him. But he found peace in his Father and the cool thing about that is that he died so that we could do the same. So even though I am feeling very alone and longing to find a place that feels like home I know that one day I will find that place with God and that loneliness I feel now I will never feel again.
This post was from December 20 but we don't have Internet at my house in Dublin so you are just now getting it. :)
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