Letting Go and Growing Up...

Wow what a weekend. There is no other way to describe it. Let's start with a verse that kind of inspired it all.

James 5:16
"Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed."

If you keep up with my posting you will have read the post "Horde or Forest Guard?" Where I talked about wearing our sins on the outside for all the world to see. Well I had a chance to go home this weekend to see my parents. And I was telling my Dad about the blog and we talked about James 5:16 a little bit. About how we are called to share our sins with one another. Well Saturday night I sit down to read my bible and God just grabbed my heart. He told me you need to confess your sins to your parents. And I was like yeah right these are my parents we are talking about. They punish you when you do something wrong. Well I try to continue reading and God just pushed harder and harder, so I finally pray that he will give me strength to do this to share my sins with my parents. I have never felt God speak to me so clearly. So I went in and had a wonderful conversation with my parents. Then my dad prayer for us just like James talks about "and pray for each other so that you may be healed." And I felt like this weight had been lifted. I was able to go back and read my bible and actually concentrate on it.

Then to make it ever more real. On Sunday we sang Amazing Grace (My Chains are gone) and to sing those words. "My chains are gone, I've been set free." It was real to me. I had finally laid my chains down at the foot of the Father. I had finally let go and was ready to continue growing in my walk with Christ.

And then the icing to the cake came when I was driving home on Monday. Tenth Avenue North was on Air 1 talking about their new song "Healing Begins" and it was a perfect description of what had happened just a few nights ago. The words to the song are:

"So you thought you had to keep this up, all the work that you do. So we think that you're good and you can't believe it's not enough. All the walls you built up are just glass on the outside so let 'em fall down.There's freedom waiting in the sound when you let your walls fall to the ground. We're here now. This is where the healing begins, oh This is where the healing starts. When you come to where you're broken within, the light meets the dark. The light meets the dark. Afraid to let your secrets out, everything that you hide can come crashing through the door now. But too scared to face all your fear, so you hide but you find that the shame won't disappear. So let it fall down. There's freedom waiting in the sound, when you let your walls fall to the ground. We're here now. We're here now, oh This is where the healing begins, oh This is where the healing starts. When you come to where you're broken within, the light meets the dark. The light meets the dark. Sparks will fly as grace collides with the dark inside of us. So please don't fight this coming light. Let this blood come cover us, his blood can cover us. This is where the healing begins, oh This is where the healing starts. When you come to where you're broken within The light meets the dark The light meets the dark."

The song talks about the walls that you build up so that people can't see what is in our hearts. Until we knock those walls down we are not free. Those sins that we hide are holding us captive. And when we knock down those walls we are free and can start healing from the scars that the chains have formed. I think the line that gets me the most and where it says, "too scared to face all your fear, so you hide but you find that the shame won't disappear." We are scared to open that door for others. So instead we hide and that shame of what we have done sticks with us and will not go away. So let break down the walls. And feel that brokenness inside so that we can begin to heal. It is terrifying I know to become transparent to a person. What if they reject you or judge you for what you have done. But God calls us to do it. And then if you are the one they decide to open up to you are suppose to pray for them. Pray that God will send that healing for them. That the chains that have held them captive for so long will be broken and the wounds will begin to heal.

So like I said WOW what a weekend. My healing is beginning. What do you need to reveal to someone today? Whose healing do you need to be praying for? I hope that you can find the courage and the desire to do both of these. Trust me the freedom the song talks about is an amazing feeling!!! Hope you have a wonderful Tuesday!!