This weekend I finally got out and hang out with people, both on Friday and on Saturday. I had been really looking forward to this weekend because I would not have to spend the entire weekend by myself and my parents were going to come visit me. Well Thursday my Dad calls and tells me that him and mom are not coming because they are going to get snow yet again on Friday and since the weather had been so bad we would just move their visit.
Then on Friday I went out with a guy from work and his wife and some of their friends. We went and ate and then went to some art exhibits. The conversation was good and I really enjoyed the paintings but dinner was the down side to it all. I have tried very hard to stay away from drinking and when we went to dinner almost everyone at the table ordered something to drink. I felt so uncomfortable and then the rest of the night you can smell the alcohol on their breaths. Also after the art trail closed they were trying to think of something else to do and they were like we could go to a bar. Thankfully God rescued me and we went to a coffee shop instead. I know that drink is not bad but that is just something I have never wanted to be around. The whole time I felt like I did not belong there.
Then on Saturday night we had a Sunday school party. We were going to get together and play some games. I was really looking forward to that night because I thought I was beginning to make some friends. However the entire night I felt so out of place. All of these people showed up who I had never met before and the people who I usually talk to were talking to them. I tried to be sociable and talk to the new people but they just wanted to hang out with their friends.
I have really been struggling lately with living in Levelland, I mean I am so far from my family, I have been here two years and haveno friends outside of work and I still have not found a church home. This weekend just added to my feeling of not belonging here. I know that Christ says we will have struggles and that following Him will not be easy. I guess all I can really do is ask for guideance and wait to see what God has in store for me. So if you could just pray that God shows me where I belong.
If there is anything that you are struggling with and would like some prayer please let me know I would love to pray for you.
Sorry the weekend was bad. I will see you in 2 weeks !!!!
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