Sunday

God grabbed my heart and my attention this weekend. Saturday was my mom's birthday so both Joshua and I came home to spend some time with her and dad. We spent all day Saturday together shopping and decorating for the church fellowship on Sunday and best of all Skyping my brother and his family. It was a well needed day of laughter and love. Then on Sunday I was able to go to church at the church where I have basically spent half of my life time. It was refreshing to be greeted first by people and to have arms opened to me for some much desired hugs. It felt like I had come home and really that is true. That church is my family, they have been there for me through so much and have prayered for me more times than I will ever know. I felt like I belonged somewhere. That was only the beginning. God had taken hold of my heart and was about to squeeze it. In worship we began to sing, Judy had picked wonderful praise and worship songs and I could feel the emotion building up in me. I knew God was there with me and that He was showing me something and I tried to hold back the tears. Then we came to the song Clean Hands. Just singing those words "Oh God let us be a generation that seeks, that seeks your face." and "Give us clean hands, give us pure hearts, let us not lift our souls to another." I couldn't hold back the emotion anymore. Growing up I use to ask God to break my heart for His people and Sunday He did that. We are not a generation who is seeking God faces, we are a generation who is seeking money and the latest technology. It is all about how to get ahead and we don't care who we hurt along the way. We have become so hard hearted, and our hands are anything but clean. We bow our hearts to so many idols, money, pride, success. Our eyes have fallen for the Lord and landed on anything that can help us get what we want. I want to be one who seeks God face, who strives to have a pure heart and clean hands. I know that it will not always be easy, that there is going to be tough times but that when I am struggling there is a body of people who will be praying for me. That even though right now I don't always feel like I belong that there will always be a place for me in the family of God and that I am forever loved by someone one whose love is beyond all understanding. So I challenge you today to look and see what are you bowing your heart to and what is it that you are seeking?